Leave Me Alone

When you left
I cried, and I begged and I hurt
And when you left
My life became a mess

But I woke up one day
And the pain was gone away
Left in the hole where once was my heart
was anger and disgust

So leave me alone
I don't love you, I don't hate you
I just don't want to talk to you

I'm over it, I'm moving on
You cant have me, I'm way to strong
My life is better without you
I'm happy, so leave me alone

Your beepers beeping
You know its time
To come back crawling
But you're out of line

I'm having fun
I'm being strong
I'm on my own

So leave me alone
I dont love you, I dont hate you
I just dont want to talk to you

I'm over it, I'm moving on
You cant have me, I'm far to strong
My life is better without you
I'm happy, so leave, please leave, leave me alone.

Thoughts.

I HATE you for leaving
The one thing you PROMISED
you wouldn't do.

But I HATE myself even more
I HATE myself for still
LOVING you.

More pieces of a song that I started writing last summer. These phrases are too commonly used though, and not that creative, so I feel like I cant use it as my own song, or even keep adding on to the song. I think what I'm going to end up doing is somehow incorporate the lyrics into a painting that displays the emotion!?!


ANNNYYYYWAAYYY. It's Christmas, my Favorite day of the entire year. I plan on watching Christmas movies all day, and doing crazy things with my family. My friend Mark is going to come over and hang out with the fam, I am also excited about that, and of course there are the presents to open :) The best part of Christmas in my house by far though is watching my two dogs open all of their presents..we spoil them more than anyone else in our family! Merry Christmas!

Lost.

This is one of the many songs that I started writing while I was in London. London was such an exciting crazy place for me because I had so many new things to take in. I also had to focus on keeping old relationships strong, and building new ones. While I had more fun than I can describe, I felt often broken while I was there, and one experience in particular ripped my heart out, so I started writing this song. This one is incomplete, like many of my others.

Lost

I am lost in your eyes
And i am tangled in your words
But you are only in your heart
And I am crying alone

You know I am waiting here
Grasping onto thoughts of you
And you give me hope
Then take it away again.



I started writing other verses for it, but they never fit quite right, and now it is hard to complete because I am not in the same place or the same experience that made me want to write this in the first place, sooo I suppose this is a work in progress for now!

Inspiration song for writing this= Andy McKee- When She Cries, even though it sounds nothing like my song it somehow still inspired me.